Sparkle, Pop...

Jubee pressed the bike as hard as it would go, roaring out the Harley challenge as she shot down the back roads of New York, Massachusets, New Hampshire....

She wanted to go North, as far as she could, but her injuries and pains were taking thier toll, and the bike weaved dangerously as she struggled to control it.

Stupid Chase. Stupid Ororo. Stupid Jean... stupid everybody!

Tears formed in her eyes, and the road got blurry and dark, and she weaved further until finally the inevitable occured and the bike hit a rut, then went spinning out of control down the road with Jubes hanging on.

She felt herself flying, then felt the bike smash into the ground, and finally she let go, ready to die and prove to everybody that Jubilation Lee would never learn anything, not how to take care of herself, not how to drive, and not how to keep herself under control.

She closed her eyes as time seemed to slow, and waiting to careen into the trees headfirst and have it all gone, and done. Finally.

Jubes stumbled out of the cafe, and right into the Danger Room. And this time she didn't even need to read her journal to remember what happened.

Stupid Chase. Who was he to do that to her? She loved him, she only wanted to help him, and look at what he'd done. Had a kid he'd never told her about, told her to leave off when she was trying to help him, asked for that stupid Cameron to take care of him....

She collapsed to the floor, sobbing stormily as she leaned against the Danger Room's silver walls. It was too much, the pain of loosing her place on the team, the shame and humiliation the survey had brought her, loosing Hank to Ororo and having everybody hate her for it, Chase lying to her and not trusting her, Wolvie being gone....

She sat there for untold length of time, and finally somebody entered... two female somebodys, two people she didn't want to ever see again.
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Chase had me, or so I've written. I said it was wonderful, that it felt so... so great, just to be wanted, and to be loved, and then to lay there, being taken care of for just one night. To be held and totally focused on. It was me, he wanted, not anybody else. And I didn't want anybody else, either.

I wrote out this amazing story of my first time, and now I can't even remember it. I feel different, but more.. empty. I don't know. I gave something to him and right then it was the best thing in the world, it was the best thing to do... but he took it with him when he left. And I forgot what he gave me in return. I needed it, to. I gave something I didn't have, and lost what I needed to replace it with.

Wolvie's not back yet. Hasn't called, hasn't writted. No stories in the papers or on the news, and if Chuck knows where he is the guy isn't telling. Maybe it's a good thing. I think Wolvie'd be real mad if he found out what I did. He'd say I just did it because I've been having a tough time here. but that's not true. I think... I think I love Chase, when I'm at the cafe. I'm not even sure when I'm there, but I think I do.

Today I snapped a rib. Hurts like hell. Jean made me go to the medlab so she could wrap me up and put stitches on my neck where I got grazed by a fake Sentinel. She asked me to stop doing the real danger thing, but I'll never get better if I fake everything.

I can do level seven now, that's pretty ok. And my powers are finally starting to get a little better. I'm glad, I'm sick of being weak and useless and in the way. I'm sick of loosing everything, and I'm real sick of being helpless to change anything about it. I don't care if I die trying, but by next month I'm going to be training steadily in level nine. We'll see stupid Ororo beat me then, and they'll be begging me to join the team again.

And I won't. I'm never joining the stupid X Men again. If Wolvie didn't need me to be here for him when he got back I'd be gone by now.

Ok. I'm ok. At the Cafe a woman Logan let me cry until I passed out. I think I needed it, to. When I woke up we talked.

And I think I'm ok. I mean, when I'm home it sucks, a lot. I'm not really anybody, it seems, and definelty not anybody of worth here.

Hank's over me, to. He's happy, with Ororo, I watch them sometimes. She sits in his lap alot, and they kiss whenever they can, and it always seems like they're together. Always.

I heard Ororo telling Kitty that they were thinking about going "all the way", but Hank wasn't sure it was responcible or if they were ready. Ororo thinks that's really cute and sweet and "thoughtful" of him. She told Kitty he was the best boyfriend she'd ever had, giving her so much attention but being careful and not asking her to do anything.

She said she could see them being together a long time...

Scott's made me start going to classes again. He said that I culdn't hole myself up.

The school knows, too, about Hank and me... our non-existant dating.

I don't know why, but everybody is being hard on me about it. Hank and Ororo are the School's dream couple, and suddenly I'm the School Pits, the girl who was trying to break Hank and 'Ro up. It's really awful, some of Hank and Ororo's closer friends are really being really really mean to me.

Everybody but Bobby. Now that Hank broke up with me suddenly he's ok with me again.

God, why is it this unfair? Rogue and Kitty won't even talk to me anymore. I'm really starting to get sick of this, I didn't do anything! All I ever did was like Hank, and he broke up with me. Why is it my fault? I mean, doesn't anybody even care that Ororo stole him from me?

But I'm not a superstar. I don't do anything great.

In other news, I passed level 6 in the Danger Room today! Wolvie saw me do it, and he said that I was doing ok. I know I'm not Level 8, but I have started training on Level Seven.

The Professor offered to let me on the team, but at practise I was killed a bunch of times. The team members were leaving me out on my own, and Scott never noticed.

I decided not to join the team again. I'm dead socially, and nobody likes me, but I'm not going to commit suicide by going out with teammates who hate me for something I didn't do.

I hope my birthday is better.... I'm turning 19 in a few days. Maybe that will be better. Maybe at 19 everything will fall into place. Maybe it'll be ok again.

I've been doing a lot of thinking (and crying) but I think I've done it.

OK, here it is. Ororo's stats are on top, mine are on the bottom. Read and compare and it's obvious.


List Of Comparison between Ororo Munroe and Jubilation Lee

Codename Storm (Describes power, ferociousness, magnitude, and an aurora of mystery)
Codename Jubilee (Describes something a little kid would have with a pile of something icky)

Powers Elemental Control of the Weather
Powers Can create little tiny colored bulbs of light.

Popularity Best friends: 2 (Kitty, Rogue), Sub-friends: Mansion Population minus first two and me.
Popularity Best Friends: 1 (Wolvie the stinky old man), Sub-friends: 2 (Rogue, Jamie)

Beauty Rating: 8*
Beauty Rating: 4.5*

Grades High Honor Student^
Grades B- to B Average

Kindness Voted 2nd Kindest in her class, third in the school in end-of-year award Who's Who.^
Kindness Was never voted for^

X-Team Contribution Sub-team leader, Level 8 in the DR
X-Team Contribution Suspended from Team, Level 5 in the DR

Experiance with Boys Has every guy in the school daydreaming. Has had multiple to unknown numbers of relationships with boys.
Experiance with Boys Was kissed by guy she can't remember and by Hank

Appeal "12!!!!" *
Appeal 5*

Assumed Age 19.5* (Actual age 19.5)
Assumed Age 16* (Actual age 18.11)


* - Average scores on 1-10 charts on anonymous survey spread through teenage boy population
^ - Was stolen from school data-base




OK. Now if that wasn't telling, nothing will be.

I mean, come on. The rest of that stupid survey Kitty sent out I wasn't offered as an option.

There. OK, well, at least I know why Hank left me. If he even started out with me. I mean, Ororo's the top of the top, creme of the French crop. And me? I'm forgotten.

At... at least I know. I mean, I don't blame him. Why get stuck with the immature, inexperianced kid when he had the goddess of the mansion asking him out?

I... I thought he would have been nicer though. At least... tell me, I guess.

Ororo has announced that she and Hank are a couple.

Like, announced for Real! Right during breakfast! How slutty is that?!

And Hank was just sitting by her and looking down... and I couldn't even stay there. I ran out.

And later somebody knocked on my door, and then Ororo just let herself in like she owned the place.

I was under my bed again, and she frowned, but I think she saw my foot because she came over and sat in my beanbag couch like she was allowed to do whatever the freaking hay she wants and said that she was "really sorry" and "had no idea you and Hank were together when I asked him to the movie" and "Had no idea when I told our friends" but "Hank and I talked about it and "Hank said you guys were never really going out" and that she hoped I wasn't too mad and would still be friends with both of them.

And I just got out from under my bed and I slapped that @#%!^ across the cheek, and I threw her out of my room with my paffs and then I ran downstairs and stole her pie. And I'm glad I did, too. She and Hank can do whatever they want, they can just die for all I care.

And who needs a stupid teenaged hormone bag anyway?! I've got Chase. He likes me. He wants to be with me. And Ororo could never get him from me no matter how hard she tried!

And I HATE HER.

AND HANK.

AND KITTY.

I kissed Chase. I saw him at the Cafe and I wanted to tell him about me and Hank now, but he's going through a really really bad time and so I was just going to leave him alone and tell him when he was feeling better.... but then he kissed me. And I kissed back.

I'm really ashamed of myself, but I should help it.

And then I came home with Hank ((he'd been passed out)) and Ororo was there. And she asked Hank if he wanted to go to a movie. Like, with me right there.

And he said yes.

After Ororo left I went away too, and he got upset and followed me, and told me it was just a movie, and so I said well that was good because obviously our movie was just a movie and then I told him whatever and slammed my door in his face.

When they got home... ugh. My room is right next to Kitty's, and she and Ororo were just talking and talking about the movie, and how... how she and Hank went for a walk in the park after.

And I just laid in bed and cried. And then Hank tried to come in again, and he kept telling me through the door that nothing had happened, and it was just friends, but I had heard Ororo. He'd kissed her once. A shy "cute little kiss that made me just want him" as Ro described. And then he's gotten embrassed and confused and stuttered and she'd taken him home.

"He was too adorable to use up there, on that silly little bridge."


I hate him. And I hate me too, but at least I didn't break up with Chase. At least I still have a guy who just wants me. Don't I?

I caught Hank looking at Ro today. I mean, like, really looking. And she was, like, flirting with him.

And I don't think I really like that... but I haven't said anything to him. I mean, I wouldn't think that he would... I mean, like... I don't know. But when you see that... it's weird.

I don't know. Maybe I'm just being stupid.

Ororo Stinky Munroe likes Hank! I saw her and Jean and I heard them talking about it. And apparently Hank likes Ororo, a lot, even though he took me to the movie and kissed me... apparently Ro still thinks she has a chance.

I don't like it. I mean, she's one of the coolest, prettiest, smartest, most athletic girls in the school. All the guys have had or still have crushes on her, Scott, Bobby, Peter... and now Hank. And Ro knows how to date, I mean, she's done a lot of it.

And who am I? I just like Hank. Chase said I was beautful, but he's the only one who's ever said anything like that to me, and I suck at school and everybody knows I'm not that great as an X Man....

What hope to I have of keeping Hank when he likes the most popular girl around, and she likes him back?

Ok, so like, after I got Hank calmed down he asked me to an IMax thing in the city, so we went today, and it was like, totally amazing! I can't remember the movie or the plot, but we sat together and he put an arm around me, and like, I got to lay me head on his shoulder and he smelled, like soo nice.

I always thought guys stunk, but I guess that was just Bobby and Wolvie.

Anyway, after the movie we went to the park and walked around, talking about like, school or something, and there was like, this beautiful little bridge that we stopped on and he looked up at the sky, then at me, and was like "Are you sure you want to do this?" and I just looked at him.

I mean, please! Of course I... sort of was sure. Well, I was sure that I liked him, and sure Chase had ceased showin' up, and just sure about most of the other stuff....

Anyway I laughed a little bit and kissed him, and I guess he got the message 'cause he grinned as well and kissed back, and it was like, the best half an hour of my life.

By the time we got home it was really late, but Hank walked me all the way to my room and kissed my hand and told me goodnight, and it was just like the movies... except we were still in the same house in the same wing when we went to bed, but like, that's beside the point.

Jubes squeaked as she started sliding down the steep slope of the roof, shingles sliding off with her.

"No!" she yelped, then suddenly felt a strong arm wrap around her waist and catch her easily, pulling her back to the top of the roof.

"Jubilee! Are you alright?" Hank gasped at her, looking very pale as he set her on the peak of the roof next to him, not letting go.

"You saved me!" she gasped, grabbing his arm.

"I... yes," Hank looked away, down at his feet.

Jubes looked at him, and as her momentary terror left she remembered and then bit her lip, tears starting to splash down her cheeks.

"Hank, I'm so sorry!" she said, throwing her arms around him and almost sending them crashing off the back of the roof. He gasped and caught them again, then looked down at Jubilee.

"No, I'm sorry," he said softly. "The letter was brash, and not thought out. And I should have checked before...."

"But I want to go with you!" Jubes said, eyes big. Hank's head snapped around, and he stared at her in disbelief.

"What?" he said.

"I want to go to a movie, or something," Jubes said softly. "Or anything."

"With me?" he said, looking woozy. "I didn't think... I mean, the call... was telling the truth?

"Yeah, brainiac, with you! Why not? I like you, and you're cute, and you're funny...."

"But... but what about Chase?"

"I only know about Chase because I wrote about him," she shrugged, looking sad. "And according to me I haven't seen him in a long time. He just isn't around. I want a boyfriend I can remember and meet and... you know... someone who Wolvie wouldn't gut."

"Chase sounds like the type to bring about Logan's protective wrath," Hank admitted. Jubilee looked at him for a moment, then wrapped her arms around his waist and kissed him lightly on the lips.

He went stiff, and when they parted her looked down at her, eyes shining.

"You weren't joking," he said again.

"I wasn't joking," she shrugged. "For the first and only time in my life." He smiled at that, and hesitantly touched his lips to hers again. She blushed, and when they parted again both were grinning. Finally he gathered her to him, and looked down.

"Hang on, the roof is no place to be at night," he said.

"Unless you're sulking," she giggled, holding him tightly. Hank shot her a mischevious grin.

"Beasts don't sulk. They brood," he laughed, and swung them over the edge.

So like, all my stuff came and Hank and Logan were like, totally helping me out and it was really fun, too, bringing up the boxes and watching Wolvie try to figure out how to put the beanbag couch together ((Hank hid the one page diagram of how to assemble it and Wolvie was like, totally lost!!!)) and while he was doing that I was putting up the posters and Hank was carrying up the other boxes.

Then... well, something went wrong. Wolvie got real upset and knocked over the mattress on the bed, which sent like everything on top of it flying off. Hank and I were picking up the mess, and then Hank found something and started staring at it, then reached down and touched whatever it was he was loking at. I looked up and was like "Hank?" but then Wolvie was about to kill Sylvester the Pink Bunny so I went up to save him ((the bunny. Wolvie could fall out of the window for all I cared at the moment)) and when I finally finished Hank was hurrying out of the room.

He came back a little while later ((I was trying to keep Wolvie off of Sylvester)) and he looked really upset, and didn't even argue with Wolvie when he was trying to explain why beer was the best medicine for anything. Then he finished with the boxes and mumbled something and left really fast.

When I got over there I found that amoung all my stuff my diary from the Lunatic Cafe was there, but somebody had picked it up and closed it and put it on the dresser.

I got really worried so I got Wolvie to leave Sylvester and my new couch alone and come over, and he told me what page Hank had touched, and it was like, so freaking embarassing! He'd read the whole enrty about when I met Chase and how his kissed me and how great it was.

And so I like, got really really worried because Hank had looked upset, but after Wolvie tracked him he said he smelled him on the roof again, and I can't get up there ((without like, major damage taken)) so I finished doing my room ((it wasn't so fun anymore)) and then kicked Wolvie out and put in my House DVDs, and got out the Twinkies. But somebody had already opened them, and when I got into them I like, totally found this letter in there adressed to me!

Dear Jubilee, ((See? That's how I knew it was MINE))

I thought you might like a snack while moving, and I know you're the queen of Twinkie Eating contests, so I figured you could put this box to rest ((Isn't that sweet? He's totally admitting defeat! Wolvie would never do that!))
But I guess what I really wanted to say was... thanks. Thanks for saving me in the Sentinal raid ((Yeah, I totally did! That's how we met!!)) and thanks for making sure that I fit in here. After everybody found out I was a mutant... it got rough. I guess you know how it is. But coming to this school and having you always smile at me... well, it made it a lot easier to deal with.
Anyway... I guess I'm talking to much. Bobby said I do that sometimes ((Yeah, well, Hank? Bobby's a jerk sometimes!)) but I guess what I really wanted to say was that I really like you, as a person, a friend, and a teammate. I think you bring a lot to the team and the mansion, and I know you help me a great deal. Thank you.
Sincerely,
Henry McCoy



Isn't that like, the sweetest, bestest, most truest thing you've ever read?! I know! It is!

And then at the bottom ((and this made me fall off my brand new Powerpuffgirl bedspread, lucking my fall was cushioned by the wonderful new pillow... um, yeah, anyway)) there was all scribbled, like he'd panicked while writing it:

P.S. I was kind of hoping that maybe you'd like to go to a movie or something sometime, or something else, or if you don't, that's fine and great, you know.


And then... right there, right there, that's when I realized.

Hank totally just asked me out on a date.

And then he totally read about me kissing and liking another guy.

And he totally thinks that I'll laugh at him for this letter in a Twinkie box when really it's a great idea.

And the Twinkies were totally a gift, not a prank. A Totally fitting gift.

And I totally want to go to a movie with him.

And have it totally be a date. A totally real date.

And this journal totally might have just ruined everything that I didn't even know I could have....

Like... totally.

So like, I can't be mad at Wolvie anymore because he apologized and took me shopping. Unfortunetly I bought so much we had to like, get it shipped over, so most of my new stuff is coming later today.

Wolvie said I was dang lucky ta have the professor helpin' him out, n' feelin' bad 'cause I'm off the team.

I haven't told him yet that I talked to Chucky and he said if I worked really hard in the Danger Room and could cope easy with level 6 for long amounts of time there was no reason I shouldn't be able to be on the team again, and Hank's been helping me out and I'm almost nearly kind of there!

Yay!

Anyway, I'm still writing in my journal, but I keep rereading the part abou Chase, 'cause I like, haven't seen him in a while. I feel kinda bad, too, 'cause it's like... I don't know. I figured I'd actually date the first guy I kissed, but how can you date when you can't even remember the guy clearly, and you can only try to meet him on random chance when it's like, in another nexus.

Huh.

Anyway, today I found this whole box of Twinkies outside my door, it was kinda freaky. I bet Bobby or somebody took them from Hank, just to try and mkae him mad at me. Bobby doesn't seem to like me much anymore, it's like he acted towards John when he found him and Rogue kissing. But I haven't been kissing Rogue ((like, ew)), so why's he mad at me for?

So I took Hank's Twinkies back down to him. He's been folling around a lot in the labs lately, I hope his doesn't like, blow himself up or something. I tried to explain but when he saw the box in my hands he went bright red and he shook his head and started, like, mumbling. I couldn't understand anythin' he said.

So finally he sighed and muttered "I wasn't too interested in them after our contest, my stomache kind of aches still" and I got it, and really laughed, and kissed his cheek before I skipped out of the room.

They're still in the box on my dresser. I'm like, gonna need serious sugar helpings after Wolvie helps me move in. Hank even said that he'd help, too, 'cause Wolvie let me get the AWSOME bean-bag COUCH that's like, huge, and PINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wait wait, here's the list of awsome stuff Wolvie bought me ((Or I bought with his mastercard when he wasn't, like, looking))


- Bright Pink beanbag couch

- A cool five headed sparkly stand up lamp thing

- Stand-up life-sized cardboard cut-outs of Johnny Depp as Captain Jack Sparrow, Spike from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and Super-Woman

- A blue and purple and green tye-dye TV with matching DVD player

- All the available seasons of House ((the show with Chase in it!I like, get to see him all the time now, if I can't kiss him :P))

- Posters of Various Bands and Cute Guys ((Except Wolvie wouldn't let me get any with no shirts... *pout pout UNFAIRITY!*

- A new computer ((Eep. New in the used kind of way))

- One of those big round cushy chairs cuz Wolvie made the one Fluffy sat in into kindling ((New one's purple!))

- little decrotive SUPRE FAB ACTION HEROS YAY!

- Purple, pink, and blue Powerpuff Girl bedspread

- Lost of cushy flower and Beetle Bug pillows




Yeah. That's what I got. It was so awsome, it was like, everytime I found something super really cool I just had to pout at Wolvie and remind him of everything he destoryed and YAY! It was like a total limitless shopping spree.

I knew I could like, get him to put all that money that's been sitting around in his bank account from the old fights-in-bars to good use.

I love Wolvie.

First he lets me get kidnapped ((yes, Wolvie, I'm BLAMING YOU!)) and then he finds me a few days later tied up and stuffed in a bag, then he got there and threw me ((still in the bag!)) through a door in the middle of a fight, and then when he came home he smelled Fluffy ((who'd come in for a visit from the LC)) and tore my room to shreds!

Then he said I can't go on missions anymore cuz they ain't safe and when I'm trying to trin in the Danger Room he turns the robots up to level 9!

He is SO MEAN!

*Pouts and jumps up and down on the floor*

Jubilee skips down the hall of the mansion, knocking those foolish enough to not get out of her way into the walls.

"Hey, watch it!"

"Slow pokes should be more attentive, Bobby!" she crowed, laughing aloud as she twirled, tripped, and fell into the living room with a bang.

"What the...?" Logan bolted upright from the couch and looked at her, but she giggled madly, holding a diary to her chest.

"I'm so HAPPY!" she said, eyes closed.

"Uh... ok," Logan said, shaking his head and falling back.

Jubilee sighed happily, opening up the diary to her last entry.

Everything from the Lunatic Cafe was recorded in this book. She'd brought it there when she remembered it, and now she could reread and remember it when she was back home.

She had kissed a guy! A guy had kissed her! She could squeal!

Well... she already had... still. She could squeal again. And possibly even another time after that.

She laughed and rolled on the floor, getting to her belly and then sighing, happily.

She had kissed a guy!!!!!!!

And he had liked her! And said he'd had a crush on her!


Today would be a good day to die. Die happy.

Jubes blinked as she walked into the TV room and found Logan asleep on the couch.

The bouncy girl hopped over, leaping over the back of the couch and landing on her mentor's stomach, making him start and yell.

"Gotcha," she grinned at him. Logan stared at her wide eyed, breathing heavily for a moment before he groaned.

"What is it, squirt?" he said, flopping back on the couch. Jubilee got off his stomach and snuggled into his side, looking up at him.

"Wolvie?" she asked in her nicest voice. Logan opened an eye and looked at her suspicously.

"What?" he said, hand going to protect his wallet. Jubes frowned.

"Would you kill Scott so you and Jean could hook up?" she asked. Logan's hand dropped away and he stared at her.

"Why're ya askin' me that?" he said. Jubes looked down.

"I... I got sucked into the cross-dimensional Cafe the other day, and I met another you, and he tried to kill Scott so he could sleep with Jeanie and then try to kill Chuck," she said, pulling away from him. Logan let out a breath.

"Whoa," he said, eyes wide. Jubes nodded and then hugged her knees.

"I didn't like him. He was scary."

"Aw," Logan made a face as he pulled her to his side again and wrapped his arms around her. "You know I like Red, kid, but I wouldn't turn on Scooter for her. She'd never forgive me. An' ya know I'd never turn on Chuck, he's the one who helped me when I was down n' out, n' that ain't no way t' repay a debt."

"I know," Jubilee grinned, feeling assured as she hugged him. "N' I told the other Wolvie, too. I said my Wolvie was more honorable, an' wouldn't ever do that."

Logan smiled down at her, his hands threading through her hair.

"You look beat, kid," he said.

"But cute," she grinned at him and snapped a bubble. Logan chuckled.

"Go t' sleep," he said, still stroking her hair as he leaned back and drifted off.

Wolvie's teaching me how to use nunchucks.


I broke:

A Lamp
A Chair
Three Windows
A Grandfather clock


Wolvie says I'm doin' great!

I'm, like, so cool!

- tickled Wolvie

- tickled Rogue

- Beat Hank in a Twinkie eatting contest

- set fire to Scott's pants (by mistake)

- Threw Scott in the pond (on purpose)

- Saved a kitten from a tree

- Replaced said kitten with a brat up in the tree

- chased a squirell for an hour

- did absolutely no homework

- went on a Safari in the jungle.

- Let Pete get lost in the jungle and attacked by big monkeys

- Told Bobby a lie.

- Laughed when Bobby believe the lie.

- Made Bobby freak out when he found out the lie.

- Was made by Prof. X to appologize to everyone

- Accidently blew my gum up my nose.

- Got stuck up on the roof of the mansion

- Am still up on the roof of the mansion.



yeah, today was fun. Wonder what'll happen after lunch?